So I got myself an iPhone. I've used smart phones for years, generally HTC. I liked the user interface and apps on the iPhone, so I thought I'd give it ago.
However, having given up my Touch diamond. I'm not sure I've made the right decision. The apps are great and the touch interface is good. But the phone isn't that great, the gps is a bit hit and miss. And it can only talk to a computer through iTunes, which is wank!
Camera is poor, very poor! You have to download apps to do anything, including use PDFs or office documents. All of which came as standard on pretty all of the smartphones I've had before right back to the MPX 200!
Now if the HTC Hero is any good I will know I've made a mistake!!!
And yes I've blogged from phone before as well...
Wednesday, 16 December 2009
Monday, 7 September 2009
Ullswater Photos
My eldest practicing his support strokes.
I think its a Hillman Imp, and yes it is in the lake. We were just minding our own business when a parade of road vehicles floated across the lake.
Sunset over Ullswater, quite like this one. Spare of the moment shot the sun was setting and I was just sitting by the lake.
Ullswater...
Friday, 4 September 2009
Breakdown
So in April I fell apart.
I had some time off over easter, a bit of holiday. It wasn't a good holiday, I was pre-occupied with work. There were a few a full on jobs coming up, a few full on clients. With hindsight they were not a problem, well not a real problem. Something much deeper was going on inside my head.
Anyway, when I came back into work I was faced with prepping the smallest job in the world, for the nicest client in the world. I just couldn't do it. I just sat down in the warehouse and brokedown. I was convinced that I couldn't do anything, I knew nothing and would never be able to get my head round the technical side of my job - for a technical manager that's pretty significant!
However, it wasn't just the technicals, I knew that deep down. Afterall, technical stuff you can just learn... but the baggage that you carry around with you, or other people carry around, just becomes a huge weight dragging you down... that's how I felt!
The technicals were just the easiest way to express my failure, my collapse.
I went home, I went to the doctor. I was signed off with stress... it was too earlier to say depression.
As soon as I was not in work it felt like a huge weight had been lifted off my shoulders, I wasn't better... and I am still not 100%. But when you remove a huge pressure you just feel that little bit better off. I was able to think again, if only to deal with what I was feeling at the time. It didn't really afford me real thinking time, time to plan what I needed to do in the future.
After two weeks I went back to the doctors and I was feeling much less stressed, so I went back to work. To do something positive, be busy. I didn't want going back to become a huge chore, I wanted to slip back into things. And to be fair my bosses and colleagues made it very easy and offered alot of support. But I wasn't 100%, and I had a couple of moments to say the least.
I've been a simmering pot ever since, most days I'm fine. But on occassion I just not. I can't concentrate and I just want to scream or curl up and hope "it" all goes away. I don't know really what I can do to straighten myself out. I could try and get a new job, but I'm not sure how that is going help, a new job might just have the same or worse stresses. So that may not be the best thing, but I do know that I can not carry on doing what I am doing...
I had some time off over easter, a bit of holiday. It wasn't a good holiday, I was pre-occupied with work. There were a few a full on jobs coming up, a few full on clients. With hindsight they were not a problem, well not a real problem. Something much deeper was going on inside my head.
Anyway, when I came back into work I was faced with prepping the smallest job in the world, for the nicest client in the world. I just couldn't do it. I just sat down in the warehouse and brokedown. I was convinced that I couldn't do anything, I knew nothing and would never be able to get my head round the technical side of my job - for a technical manager that's pretty significant!
However, it wasn't just the technicals, I knew that deep down. Afterall, technical stuff you can just learn... but the baggage that you carry around with you, or other people carry around, just becomes a huge weight dragging you down... that's how I felt!
The technicals were just the easiest way to express my failure, my collapse.
I went home, I went to the doctor. I was signed off with stress... it was too earlier to say depression.
As soon as I was not in work it felt like a huge weight had been lifted off my shoulders, I wasn't better... and I am still not 100%. But when you remove a huge pressure you just feel that little bit better off. I was able to think again, if only to deal with what I was feeling at the time. It didn't really afford me real thinking time, time to plan what I needed to do in the future.
After two weeks I went back to the doctors and I was feeling much less stressed, so I went back to work. To do something positive, be busy. I didn't want going back to become a huge chore, I wanted to slip back into things. And to be fair my bosses and colleagues made it very easy and offered alot of support. But I wasn't 100%, and I had a couple of moments to say the least.
I've been a simmering pot ever since, most days I'm fine. But on occassion I just not. I can't concentrate and I just want to scream or curl up and hope "it" all goes away. I don't know really what I can do to straighten myself out. I could try and get a new job, but I'm not sure how that is going help, a new job might just have the same or worse stresses. So that may not be the best thing, but I do know that I can not carry on doing what I am doing...
Wednesday, 12 August 2009
Ullswater. Camping & Canoeing
Just returned from the Lakes and a weekend of camping & canoeing with family and friends. We had great weather, which is always good when you're camping. Sunshine.
I haven't canoed for a long time, but thought I'd give it a go. My boys both love it, so it seems only fair to see if I still had the knack. And yes, I do need more practice, but it was huge fun. I stayed in the big open canoe, while the boys played around in Kayaks. It was so chilled, no pressure, no need to rush or do anything, just play in boats!
Followed by BBQ and beers, just enough chatter and laughing... it was great! And boy did I need it.
Really blew the cobwebs away, I wish every weekend could be like that... maybe it can?
I also got plenty of time to take photos, which I am slowly working through...
I haven't canoed for a long time, but thought I'd give it a go. My boys both love it, so it seems only fair to see if I still had the knack. And yes, I do need more practice, but it was huge fun. I stayed in the big open canoe, while the boys played around in Kayaks. It was so chilled, no pressure, no need to rush or do anything, just play in boats!
Followed by BBQ and beers, just enough chatter and laughing... it was great! And boy did I need it.
Really blew the cobwebs away, I wish every weekend could be like that... maybe it can?
I also got plenty of time to take photos, which I am slowly working through...
Tuesday, 28 July 2009
Boys on Bikes
So we got my eldest a new bike for his birthday. His birthday isn't until November, but he needed a new bike, and we felt it would be better for him to get it while the sun was shining. He should understand that he will not actually get anything on his birthday...
So far he's been out on his bike nearly everyday, the days he isn't on his bike is only because we've had to go somewhere else!
Of course when Iget my new bike we will not have anywhere else to go...
So far he's been out on his bike nearly everyday, the days he isn't on his bike is only because we've had to go somewhere else!
Of course when Iget my new bike we will not have anywhere else to go...
Thursday, 16 July 2009
One year
I blog infrequently, certainly not enough.
What have I done since my last post... worked. Been on holiday, had a breakdown, ripped the top of my finger off, bought my eldest son a new bike. All of which I need to expand upon, and if I had blogged some more, got my head empty into the ether, maybe I'd have a bit happier. Which brings me to my Mum.
As I type this, twelve months ago I recieved a phonecall, my sister saying we had to get to the hospital. My Mum was gone before we arrived, my Dad was there, alone.
So its been one year since my Mum died, I still don't really understand. But that's bereavement. We all go through it and it affects us all differently, I just don't know how it has really affected me.
What have I done since my last post... worked. Been on holiday, had a breakdown, ripped the top of my finger off, bought my eldest son a new bike. All of which I need to expand upon, and if I had blogged some more, got my head empty into the ether, maybe I'd have a bit happier. Which brings me to my Mum.
As I type this, twelve months ago I recieved a phonecall, my sister saying we had to get to the hospital. My Mum was gone before we arrived, my Dad was there, alone.
So its been one year since my Mum died, I still don't really understand. But that's bereavement. We all go through it and it affects us all differently, I just don't know how it has really affected me.
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